In order to be irreplaceable one must always be different.
- Coco Chanel
I restore myself when I'm alone.
- Marilyn Monroe
- Marilyn Monroe
Lazy Sunday afternoon naps.
Chocolate wrappers strewn all over the study table.
Shades of red, blue, brown,orange and black flashing.
Barefoot dances around the kitchen table.
Fingers lifted to catch the clouds.
Nailpolish in assorted colours like candy.
Indie music blasting from the speakers.
Vintage cutouts fluttering in dreams.
Life in technicolour.
Couldn't get any better than this.
Sunday, June 19, 2011 (11:59 PM)
Ok, so I haven't been posting for awhile now, but coming back to this blog and looking over it, I realized that I have spent so much time just editing this theme. It's like this blog is my baby. One of my earliest graphic works created. It should deserve the credit. So I've decided to start blogging again. Since Facebook and Twitter are no longer something I fancy anymore, I've decided to devote my life to this blog and my Tumblr blog. There's another reason why I've decided to return to blogging. It's cause this blog is a place where I can just pour my heart out to, without worrying about offending anyone, or that this post might be read by some knucklehead that I hate out there.
I really see myself as this person, who is successful, living her dream life and really just enjoying life itself. However looking back at reality, I realize that dream is still far from my reach, and I really hope I might someday grab hold of it. Oh gosh, that vomit taste and sensation is creeping at the back of my throat again. Gross. God I really hate throwing up.
Maybe I should just disappear from everyone's life at some point. Start a new life. Where I am just a stranger to everyone, waiting to be uncovered. Haha, cheesy talk.
Well, that's all for now, I have to get back to this assignment I am working on. It's one of my favourite assignments, so I am hoping I would get it right *fingers crossed*.
I really hope nobody reads this post. Its just so random. Like me.
Ciao for now. xoxo
Thursday, April 15, 2010 (7:01 PM)
Somethings wrong with this blog. I can't access my previous entries. TT
I read some random blogs today and realized one thing, being a your average girl/guy is so damn boring. Urgh.
The blogs I read are all soo emotional. Whiny and romantic. Not that being romantic is a very bad thing. Its just...typical. Typical emo teenager-ish.
Makes me wonder, why do teenagers all crave love? What is soo great about this little thing called love? Appreciate what you have, and not whine and cry over some "love" that may not even exist. Yes, maybe you do have feelings for a certain someone. Just remember that crushes are meant to be a secret. =)
I have done many mistakes regarding this matter in the past. It shall not happen again, I hope.
And what I have learned from this?
Whining and secretly crushing gets yall nowhere.
Do something about it.
And not just write about it on blogs and make people wonder.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010 (11:45 AM)
Wednesday, December 2, 2009 (5:22 PM)
I feel as if I have been shot/stabbed at for about a million times non-stop.
So I am the bad guy huh? I was the cause of your misery that night? Do you hear yourself talking? Whatever you said conflict each other, so I suggest you look back and think about what really happened before you pin the blame on somebody else. Other people who weren't there, may take pity on you, for all they hear is YOUR side of the story. Nobody shunned you out, nobody is talking bad behind your back, and FYI, to get other people to get to know the REAL you, you have to make a move first, or at least make an effort to be nice to people, or at least SMILE. Nobody is going to try to please you, or impress you if you keep up with this attitude of yours.
You say people have a false impression of you, people think you're arrogant, stubborn and pig-headed, that they all make false judgement based on your appearance. Well heck, of course they'll think like this if the way you appear is arrogant, pig-headed and stubborn. Seriously, no one really thinks you are like that, you probably didn't even give them a chance to make that long of an impression on you. They probably think they are the ones with problems.
What's there to cry about when people tell you the truth, in hopes of you being able to change for the better? Wake up and smell the coffee. Society does not tolerate such behaviour, so if you want to go anywhere at all, you should seriously consider changing that dreadful attitude of yours. Stop being so narrow minded and take a look at the damn bigger picture. You think everyone else who don't see you is pathetic, truth is, who is the pathetic one?
This event was an effort to help you with that attitude of yours, I guess it backfired. I apologize if you think helping a friend to carry her stuff for a few minutes is very hard work and is very humiliating, I won't do it again.
You wanna know what you sound like? You sound like a coyote wondering why don't the chickens want to befriend him, when all he does is gobble up every chicken in sight.
Sometimes, it really does matter, even if it means faking a smile, acting like you're friendliest person on Earth and risk looking like an idiot, something I learned to hard way. I am sick of smiling and telling you nothing is wrong, and everything is okay, that it's their fault, when it is actually not okay. You have issues and it is time to deal with it.
Sunday, November 8, 2009 (10:48 PM)
2 more exams to go. 3 days seemed like 3 weeks. Yet it seems like 3 hours when you're burning the midnight oil. When will boredom end???
Plus, after 3 or 4 weeks without exercise, I managed to gain back what I have worked hard to get rid off (okay, so maybe I didn't work that hard. Nevertheless, exercise is hard.) After 2 weeks of going nowhere, just staying at home, the outside world somehow felt like an alternate universe to me the moment I stepped out after 2 weeks.
*bright sunlight**squints into the distance**hear birds singing**security guards singing in Snow White fashion**pollution smells good*
Okay, so maybe I exaggerated a little bit, but it sure felt that way. I am not one whom you can keep locked at home for long. I'll fidget.
PS: Well, at least I got my pedicure. Will update about that later.
Back to studying. *curses under breath*
Thursday, October 22, 2009 (5:30 PM)
A pedicure, a massage, good effective meds for flu, a prom dress, shoes for prom, new makeup products,
a prom date, hair fall tonic, good food, awesome music worth listening to, exercise, to go on a diet, a makeover, hair, health, new clothes, retail therapy, a therapist, quiet time, an ambition, an active brain, books, magazines, materials to make dresses, lessons on how to make a dress, tips on how to be frugal, plastic surgery, social lessons, DVDs, comedy in life instead of drama, sleep, new shoes, new underwear, cooking lessons, a car, a hitman, God, 27 cats, a life, perfume, a new backpack, to stop being materialistic, computer games, optimism, self esteem, anger management classes...
I need to FOCUS ON MY EXAMS. ARGH.