In order to be irreplaceable one must always be different.
- Coco Chanel
I restore myself when I'm alone.
- Marilyn Monroe
- Marilyn Monroe
Lazy Sunday afternoon naps.
Chocolate wrappers strewn all over the study table.
Shades of red, blue, brown,orange and black flashing.
Barefoot dances around the kitchen table.
Fingers lifted to catch the clouds.
Nailpolish in assorted colours like candy.
Indie music blasting from the speakers.
Vintage cutouts fluttering in dreams.
Life in technicolour.
Couldn't get any better than this.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009 (5:22 PM)
I feel as if I have been shot/stabbed at for about a million times non-stop.
So I am the bad guy huh? I was the cause of your misery that night? Do you hear yourself talking? Whatever you said conflict each other, so I suggest you look back and think about what really happened before you pin the blame on somebody else. Other people who weren't there, may take pity on you, for all they hear is YOUR side of the story. Nobody shunned you out, nobody is talking bad behind your back, and FYI, to get other people to get to know the REAL you, you have to make a move first, or at least make an effort to be nice to people, or at least SMILE. Nobody is going to try to please you, or impress you if you keep up with this attitude of yours.
You say people have a false impression of you, people think you're arrogant, stubborn and pig-headed, that they all make false judgement based on your appearance. Well heck, of course they'll think like this if the way you appear is arrogant, pig-headed and stubborn. Seriously, no one really thinks you are like that, you probably didn't even give them a chance to make that long of an impression on you. They probably think they are the ones with problems.
What's there to cry about when people tell you the truth, in hopes of you being able to change for the better? Wake up and smell the coffee. Society does not tolerate such behaviour, so if you want to go anywhere at all, you should seriously consider changing that dreadful attitude of yours. Stop being so narrow minded and take a look at the damn bigger picture. You think everyone else who don't see you is pathetic, truth is, who is the pathetic one?
This event was an effort to help you with that attitude of yours, I guess it backfired. I apologize if you think helping a friend to carry her stuff for a few minutes is very hard work and is very humiliating, I won't do it again.
You wanna know what you sound like? You sound like a coyote wondering why don't the chickens want to befriend him, when all he does is gobble up every chicken in sight.
Sometimes, it really does matter, even if it means faking a smile, acting like you're friendliest person on Earth and risk looking like an idiot, something I learned to hard way. I am sick of smiling and telling you nothing is wrong, and everything is okay, that it's their fault, when it is actually not okay. You have issues and it is time to deal with it.